i had no internet all of yesterday.
!!!!!
at first i thought it’d be back soon and there was no reason to get antsy. or maybe i had to tell myself that so i wouldn’t freak out. i had to divert myself with the 3 months of naruto and bleach that i’d missed while i was unable to set up my computer; i’m not sure what i would have done if i hadn’t gotten those downloaded the day before, and even then i paused every 5 minutes to check the connection. i found myself getting panicky and taking shallow breaths thinking about the daily cycle that needed to be done - gmail, deviantart, stock market, news, etc. - not to mention the blogs that were going unread, msn message i was waiting to receive and the digital painting tutorial that i wish i’d saved on my harddrive but didn’t have in my “offline pages”. i don’t know how many times i reset the modem and the router and restarting the computer, even though i knew it was pointless and futile, so i tried to forget about it and fall asleep, even though it was only 10.
i couldn’t sleep until 2 am.
help me, i think i’m addicted to the internet.